Not every now and then

Every now and then

I stop and think how God intervened

how He rescued

how He healed

Every now and then

I close my eyes and smile

I think of His unfailing Love

His mercies

which come from above

Every now and then

I look at the birds, skies and seas

His glory can truly be seen

Every now and then

He touches, embraces

kisses me gently

He tells me I’m loved

I’m beautiful

I’m wonderfully made

It is He who created me

Every now and then

I glimpse at the heavens

I search for his presence

I search the Bible

I race to church

Then he nudges me

He whispers softly

“Not every now and then,

Not every so often

But ALWAYS

Search for me within your heart

for that’s where I’ll always be.”

Poem inspired by the following scriptures:

1. “Do you not know that you are a temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?”  1 Corinthians 3:16

2. “But now, this is what the Lord says— he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:1‭-‬2 NIV



Today’s Prayer

Father, thank you for chasing me with your goodness. Thank you for always rescuing me in times of weakness. Lord, there are times when I may lose my faith in you; times when I may feel you are not near. Lord, nudge me gently, remind me that your spirit dwells within me. Lord, fill me with your perfect strength today. Fill me with your perfect love. I need you God today and every day.

May God richly bless you 🙂


Love,
Ang

This time last year: When God lets you hit rock bottom.

Anxiety

In the early hours of August 3rd 2018, my husband and I sat in the corridors of our local hospital. My anxiety had led to panic attacks, which triggered tremendous fear. It was the safest place for me at the time. I was surrounded by persons who knew what this was all about; it provided reassurance for my other half.

Lost

On August 11th, we decided it was probably best for me to take a mini break and return to the Caribbean (home) for a few weeks. My mental health had taken a turn for the worst. The thought of flying made me more anxious. What if I had panic attacks on the flight? It was almost a seven hour flight. One sister looked for the flight, while the other prayed. Mother contemplated as to whether she should book some time off to pay me a visit. I was about to book an appointment with my GP to discuss my mental health, but felt I was running out of time. I had stopped eating and now had a fear of driving. There were numerous ideas floating about; I felt completely lost. In the midst of chaos, something happened.

The Call

As I walked down my stairs on the morning of the 11th, a thought came to me, “find a church.” It was as clear as day. I knew it wasn’t my thought. God was not even on my mind. It was a Saturday, were churches opened on a Saturday? Looking back, I believe that this was the moment that Jesus called me.

Jesus loves me

On August 11th, I responded to the call. I met with my spiritual sister and her husband (Reverend) at his home. As he prayed with me, I felt lighter. After not being able to eat, I found myself eating in his home. This wasn’t a regular talk; regular talks would have brought shortlived happiness, this was different. He told me about Jesus’ love for me and His power. I believed Him; my life depended on it. I had given the world a chance and that didn’t turn out so well did it? I needed to give Jesus a chance. On August 11th, I walked away from his home with the belief that Jesus would save me; I slept peacefully for the first time in months.

The Day

On August 12th, I attended church for the first time in years. I cried! I was broken, timid and afraid, but I listened and believed every word which was spoken. On that day, I made the decision to let God take full control of my life. I didn’t know the Bible, but I believed in God. On August 12th, I confessed to mother that I needed a Saviour. This was an answered prayer for mother; a wonderful birthday gift.

Trusting God

On August 13th, I resigned from my new role in Adult Services. I had only been there for two days. In all the chaos, I somehow believed that if it was God’s will for me to return, I would return. This was the beginning of me learning to trust God.

On August 13th, I told my husband that I was not returning to work. It was his birthday gift. He wasn’t shocked by the news. He had seen how unhappy I was over the last few months and couldn’t do much about it. I  remember him saying, “we will be ok, you’ll find something you love soon.” No questions asked, only his full support.

Still Broken

On August 14th, Shan visited my home. She came to assist with job applications, I was so pleased to see her. My anxiety had made it difficult to remain on my own; her presence was more than enough. We stood in the kitchen area and wept, she said we would get through everything together. Shan had seen how my time in Children Services had broken me, how fear had consumed my life. I had spent four years training for a role which took every bit of me; all the strength I had left.

Decisions decisions

So on August 14th, we applied for about six different jobs. The same day, my manager emailed, then called to say she was not accepting my resignation letter. This led to me blocking her number! The nerves of this lady, how dare she dismissed my application? We just met. Within a few days of me resigning, I received a number of interviews. I had to make a decision. Do I return to social work or was it time to move on?

The Return

On August 17th , I returned to social work. I returned to an old situation, but this time it was different, I had Jesus with me. I took a chance on a man whom I just met. My manager and I sat in a cosy room as we discussed my anxiety. She heard the horror stories in Children Services, but never experienced this type of social work. She provided reassurance and created an action plan with me. She said, “in this job, you will get to kick butt, you will get to fight for the vulnerable.” This was right up my street! You know what, she was right 🙂

Can I say this? I applaud children social workers for their hardwork, commitment and their ability to thrive in stressful situations. There are persons who are made for these roles, persons who have found ways to be emotionally resilient or are well supported to manage these complex yet rewarding roles. I truly appreciate what they do.

Rock Bottom

After meeting with my manager, my anxiety returned. Most mornings, I stopped at my local petrol station and admired the lady behind the till. She was always happy. I would have happily traded my attire, wages, badge, mobile and laptop in receipt of her smile. I had hit rock bottom. I now smile, because it was here I discovered Jesus.

For the remainder of August, God held my hand. I started to pray more, I needed him every second of the day. Together, we attended meetings, visits and wrote case notes. When I felt fearful, this scripture kept me going.

“You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.” 1 John 4:4

Each day, my smile got a tiny bit broader. I became more confident in my work, but there was a shift in my spiritual life. I started seeing the world in a different way.

Random Questions

I felt like God was creating a new life within me. I was puzzled, as I asked random questions about life. How was the world created? How and why did God do this? I remember looking at the sky and trying to make sense of it all. Of course, I couldn’t reveal these thoughts to anyone. Can you just imagine me telling others about this? So I went searching, I opened the Bible and started with Genesis.

Genesis

Genesis provided the answers to the puzzle of life. In the book of Genesis, I saw that the world was made with extreme love. I saw that God’s primary focus was about Him and his relationship with us. Genesis did save me; I saw God’s love and mercy for humans. I felt his love. Looking back, I am certain I wasn’t losing my mind, but the shift was me seeing the world through spiritual eyes.

Faith

On August 31st, I was in awe of God when I received my wages. I felt it didn’t belong to me; if it had not been for the grace of God I would not have made it to the end of the month . On that day, I made it my duty to use my gifts to give back to God and to share with others. I saw the importance of tithing. More importantly, it was the beginning of my journey of faith.

Joy

A year later, a lot has happened. In August of 2019, I knew that God had sent me to my job to fullfill his purpose. I was not only there to assist the vulnerable clients, but to support those who were spiritually poor. As I read my final review, I knew I had made the right decision.

For confidentiality reasons, my name was removed from the writing.

A year later, God turned my mourning into dancing as I await the birth of Genesis. I am overwhelmed with joy, as it’s a new beginning for me. I am intrigued as I await to see where he leads me. My life is in his hands and it is the best place to be.

A new life

So here’s to hitting rock bottom and understanding that with Jesus we can always make it to the top. Even if God lets us fall a million times, He will always be our Rock. When we feel like we have hit rock bottom, we just need to look up; God is willing and ready to lift us up. Hitting rock bottom can truly be the foundation where one can build a new life, a life built in Christ.

Prayers

Today, I pray for anyone who is battling with their mental health. Please know it’s nothing to be ashamed of; we are all susceptible to this. I pray that God will provide for you as he does for me. May God send angels in the form of friends, family, managers or work colleagues to you.

I believe in my heart that Jesus is the greatest healer. He not only healed me of my anxiety, but he continues to save me from the attacks and lies of the enemy. However, I am mindful of those whom he has not yet called; the spiritually poor or those weak in faith.

I pray that God directs you to professionals whom he has given the knowlege, skills and wisdom to assist you during this time. Contact your GP if you need to, there might be some underlying health problem which may be undiagnosed.

My brothers and sisters, please check on that friend who has been inactive on social media for the past few days. In moments of depression or anxiety, all hope and joy is stolen. They may not be able to reach out to you, so call or pay a visit. Your support is truly needed at this time.

As I sign off, I beg of you to pray for me. I may not be able to write as much, instead I’ll share some of my poetry with you. Please let me know what you think, as poems are a bit new for me. Looking forward to being back with you soon. May God be bless and keep you.

Love ANG 🙂

Our sins might be great, but God’s love is greater.

There are six things that the Lord hates, seven that are an abomination to him: haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that make haste to run to evil, a false witness who breathes out lies, and one who sows discord among brothers. Proverbs 6:16-19

Lies

A few weeks ago, I was disappointed in myself and rather embarrassed of my actions. In an attempt to prevent a hospital admission, I found myself lying to a panel of professionals. When I joined the Adult Services, I was aware of the limited community resources and funding, which made it difficult to support persons with complex health needs. Nonetheless, lying was not an excuse. As a Christian, the truth should permeate every aspect of my life. God is a God of truth.

He is the Rock, His work is perfect; For all His ways are justice, A God of truth and without injustice; Righteous and upright is He. Deuteronomy 32: 4

I have always said, a career where I must lie to earn a living was one that I could not be a part of. In this case, I was not forced to lie and this was the difficult part. I had failed to do what was right.

“Therefore, to one who knows the right thing to do, and does not do it, to him it is sin,” James 4: 17

How could I have done such a thing to God? As I write to you, I am reminded of the story of David.

David

David was an ordinary man, who lived an extraordinary life. He trusted and believed in God, yet he lived a sinful life.

At first, David was a righteous ruler, but power and wealth took a toll on his moral compass. In lusted after Bathsheba, wife of Uriah, called her to the palace and got her pregnant.

David tried to cover his sin by having her husband come home from war and sleep with her (2 Samuel 11:9–13). When that didn’t work, he conspired to have her husband killed in battle (2 Samuel 11:15). He murdered an honest man to protect his affair with his wife, then Prophet Nathan confronted him about it all (2 Samuel 12:1–14).

David was punished for his sins, but God forgave him as well. David later confessed and acknowledged his sins; he hungered for a pure heart once more. God restored their relationship in the end.

Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.” (Psalm 51:1-2)

Acknowledgement and Confession of sin

I remember approaching Jesus and feeling a sense of shame and guilt. As I prayed, the words were stuck in my throat, yet I continued. Why didn’t I just walk away?

Over the last year, I had grown to know my Father. Through my daily reading, I had developed a personal relationship with Him. I knew His qualities. My Father is slow to anger; His love is everlasting. He was waiting for me to come to Him, just as David had done.

It was as though he was singing these words to me.

“Are you hurting and broken within?
Overwhelmed by the weight of your sin?
Jesus is calling.
Have you come to the end of yourself?
Do you thirst for a drink from the well?
Jesus is calling.

O come to the altar
The Father’s arms are open wide
Forgiveness was bought with
The precious blood of Jesus Christ.”

Conviction of Sin

As he calmed the storm in my heart, I opened up to him. I asked that He remained in me and I in Him. As we conversed, my heart was lighter, I smiled. God was working in me; I was under construction and this was good. How can God dwell in me if I am not worthy? The Holy Spirit was working in me, He had convicted me of my sins.

And when he comes, he will convict the world of its sin, and of God’s righteousness, and of the coming judgment. John 16:8

The word convict is “to convince someone of the truth; to reprove; to accuse, refute, or cross-examine a witness.” The Holy Spirit exposes anything which is not of Christ and convinces people that they need a Savior. We are convicted when we become mindful of how much our sin dishonors God.

Repentance

God wants us to live a life which is pleasing to Him; sin dishonors God. When we sin, the Holy Spirit becomes sad because of our disobedience. Yes, the Holy Spirit is Christ himself, with all of His emotions.

And do not make God’s Holy Spirit sad; for the Spirit is God’s mark of ownership on you, a guarantee that the ay will come when God will set you free. Ephesians 4:30 GNB

To make ammends, God desires for us to repent. This in an opportunity for our sins to be wiped away. We repent when we turn away from all which is evil and make it our business to do good.

Now repent of your sins and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped away. Acts 3: 19

Renew My Heart

I know that God sent his son to die for me and my sins are forgiven, but in no way should I continue to abuse this free gift.

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast.”  Ephesians 2: 8-9

In no way should wilful sin continue. I craved the opportunity to make it right with God. Not only did I desired forgiveness, but I desired a change of heart.

Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Psalm 51:10 NIV

Sanctification and Salvation

As humans, we will never be sinless, but once we come to Jesus a process occurs. First, we receive the Holy Spirit, then we are convicted of our sins, we confess our sins to God, then we repent. God will then continue His purification process (called sanctification), until we grow to become more like Jesus. Without the Holy Spirit’s conviction, there can be no salvation; we cannot be saved from hell.

As I reflect on those past few weeks, I must give God thanks. God used a complex situation to highlight the unholy aspects of my life. Therefore, I must act in obedience. It is good that I have the Holy Spirit to teach me how to live a godly life. This can only be true love.

For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people. It teaches us to say “No” to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age,
Titus 2:11‭-‬12 NIV

Today’s Prayer

I do not know which sin you are struggling with. Perhaps it’s lying, greed, envy, pride, stealing, adultery or lust. My prayer is that you can find it in your heart to boldy approach God and confess your sins to Him.

May the Holy Spirit convict us of our sins, so we can receive salvation.

May we make it our business to live a life which is pleasing to God. May we crave for a pureness of heart.

If you are reading this and you are not a Christian, thank you for reading until the end. Please know that you are not alone when it comes to sin; we are all born of sin and will continue to sin. However, with the help of the Holy Spirit you can be saved from sin, you just need to come to Jesus. May you be called by Christ Jesus and may you answer His call.

God wants you to know that your sins might be great, but His love is greater than you can ever imagine.

May God bless you richly.

Love,

Ann 🙂

Awesome Blogger Award

Thank You Dawn (Drawing Closer to Christ), for nominating me for this award. I love how detailed your writings are. When I read your posts, I feel like we are facing each other in a cosy room. I feel relaxed, yet I am in deep thought.I love your honesty and your passion for Jesus Christ.

Please read Dawn’s blog at http://drawingclosertochrist.com

Rules:

– Thank the blogger who nominated you.

– Tag your post with #awesomebloggeraward.

– Answer the questions given to you.

– Nominate and inform at least 5 bloggers.

– Give them 10 new questions to answer

Questions for me:

1. Who would you want to have dinner with and why?

Lately, I have been listening to Joel Osteen. His messages are uplifting, I can listen to him over dinner, but I might not be interested in my food any more. I’ll ask him about his journey and share mine with him.

2. What inspired you to start writing a blog?

Oh wow! In August of 2018, Jesus came to me. After He healed me from my depression, I found him irrresistable. I had to start telling others about Him.

3. How would you describe yourself in one sentence?

A work in progress.

4. What is one thing you learned in childhood that totally changed your life?

Always share with others. Mama would say, “Give and it will be given back to you.”

5. What is your most memorable vacation?

I travel to the caribbean to visit family. I am from a tiny island called St.Vincent and The Grenadines. It’s more like going home, than a vacation , but I truly love it. I enjoy visiting in the xmas season! I am awaken by cocks crowing and music at 6am. I feel like a child all over again.

6. Are you married or single?

Nine years married 🙂

7. Do you have kids, if so how old?

Pregnant with our first child, she is due in August 🙂

8. What do you want to be remembered for?

Representing Christ with boldness.

9. What is your favorite color?

I am into lime green at this moment, but mustard takes the win.

10. Do you have a favorite blog post you want to share?

I love Dawn’s post about her pregnancy.

Here are your questions.

1.What is your country of birth?

2. Are you married or single?

3. Where do you write the blog?

4. How long have you been writing?

5. What made you started writing?

6. How do you choose what to write about?

7.What is your favourite food?

8. What does Christ mean to you?

9. Were you raised in a Christian family?

10. What name do you call God?

Nominees

http://hoperising.blog

http://fromasparktoaflame.com

Lessons from the wise

image taken from mafligo.com

My flock

In my last blog post, I shared how God had used me to share His word with a colleague who was going through a difficult time. This week, I wanted to share how God used a client to remind me of His power and everlasting love. In moments of weakness, God used an elderly man to strengthen my faith in Him.

A few weeks ago, I decided to change the name of my caseload, to “my flock”. I know that Jesus is our good shepherd and we are all part of his flock, but I believe I am chosen by Jesus to care for his vulnerable children, until His return. Actually, it is an obligation for all Christians to care for others. In my line of work, policies and legislation can sometimes make this difficult to achieve, however, it is still my duty to care for others in a way which is pleasing to Jesus.


When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” “Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.” Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.” Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you love me?” He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.” Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.” John 21:15‭-‬16 NIV


COPD

On a busy duty day, I was told of an elderly man who had COPD. Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease, is an umbrella term used to describe progressive lung diseases including emphysema, chronic bronchitis, and refractory (non- reversible) asthma. This disease is characterised by increasing breathlessness. He was my first client with COPD. I did not know much about this illness, but through this man I came to learn how this illness impacted a person’s daily living.

I learnt that he was first given a few months to live. The experts were wrong; only His maker knew his beginning and end date. He was no longer on end of life care and had returned home. He was striving to remain independent, despite his illness. Nonetheless, he needed that extra support due to breathlessness. Instead of allocating the case to another social worker, I was nudged to take the case.

I visited him at his home, a few weeks later. At the door, I was greeted by a Reverend, she was his wife. She greeted me with such a welcoming smile, then escorted me to her prayer room. Her first statement was, “I see that you’re wearing your cross.” I smiled. In that moment, I reflected on how I decided to wear my cross that morning.


The Cross

Initially, I had put on my cross and then decided to take it off as it didn’t match my turtleneck outfit. The moment I took off my cross, I was nudged by the Holy Spirit to wear it. No, it wasn’t a fashion statement, it was much more than that. I thanked the Holy Spirit for speaking to me that morning. It was the cross that led to a conversation of God’s love for us.

A New purpose

My client was sitting in his armchair when I approached him. With his oxygen tank up and running, he greeted me with a huge grin. The man who was given a few months to live, seemed more alive than I felt at the time. He was little in stature, but quite tall in my sight. His face reflected his heart and the full life he lived.


He shared his life with me as an elderly Christian. He said, “When I was told my days were numbered, I wondered what my purpose would be. Now I know my purpose. While I sit in this chair, I spread the word of God. I share the message of Christ with my carers, nurses or anyone who comes to me.” In that moment, I saw the peace that came with accepting Jesus. He was accepting of his death, but even greater, he had found a new purpose in a difficult situation.


God always speaks through someone


As if he knew I was not having the best of week. He said, “The amount of ‘God incidences’ I’ve had in my life, I knew it had to be God. The way things were aligned for me, only God can do this. The world isn’t like this.” He had lived his life honouring God through music; God had given him a musical talent from the age of seven. He then played an organ for the church for most of his life, there he met his wife who was a singer turned Reverend. He said, “it was all God’s doing, it had nothing to do with me.”


I needed to hear those words. Here was a man in his late 90s sharing with me how God had favoured him in a harsh world. How God was with him from the beginning and he was convinced that God will be with him to the very end.

In most of my writings, I tend to share how God used me to bring joy to others. On that day, He used a man who was physically suffering to solidify my faith in Him. My client reminded me of Paul, a man in the Bible who had a physical disability, “thorn in the flesh”, yet God used him in his suffering.

Lessons learnt from this encounter


1. We all have a purpose, despite our circumstances/ diagnosis or our positions. God will give us the power to fulfill His purpose.


But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth. Exodus 9:16 NIV


2. When we honour God with our lives, he rewards us to the very end.


But I gave them this command: Obey me, and I will be your God and you will be my people. Walk in obedience to all I command you, that it may go well with you. Jeremiah 7:23 NIV


3. We should not fear death.

Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?” John 11:25‭-‬26 NIV


4. Blessed are those who have died in Christ 🙂


Then I heard a voice from heaven say, “Write this: Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on.” “Yes,” says the Spirit, “they will rest from their labor, for their deeds will follow them.” Revelation 14:13 NIV


5. Be willing to listen and spend time with those who may not be your usual group of people. There is much to be learnt from those who are different, especially the elderly.

Gray hair is a crown of splendor; it is attained in the way of righteousness.
Proverbs 16:31 NIV

6. God does not use us because of how we look. God searches our heart and seeks a heart which longs for him.

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7 NIV

7. We sometimes suffer (from an illness or through trials) so we can bring hope or comfort to those who are also suffering.

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.
2 Corinthians 1:3‭-‬4 NIV

Today’s Prayer

Today, I want to pray for those who are suffering from an illness or terminal diagnosis. I pray that in your time of suffering, you can use your story to bring comfort to those who are also going through a difficult time. May God give you the strength to see you through the very end. May God’s peace be with you.

I pray that you and I will learn to appreciate those who are different. May we look beyond a person’s physical appearance and look within their hearts.

The next time you see an elderly person, I pray that you find it in your heart to greet them with a smile. You never know, you might just be smiling at an angel 🙂


God bless you today and always.


Love,


Ann 🙂

Nothing Without God


Challenges

The past few weeks have been testing. The job of a social worker can be rewarding, but equally challenging. Where people’s lives are involved, there is always that question of, “What if I don’t get it right?” This was how my anxiety started, it was around this time last year the enemy found his way in. I felt his presence again, I had lost two nights of sleep.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34 NIV

Can we pray?

I drove into work with one belief, I believed in my heart that God will come through for me. I approached Him in the ladies’ room and as I shared my fears and worries with Him, I felt my heart becoming lighter. I asked for His leading, for His wisdom and guidance. I knew I needed Him more than ever.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

After our meeting, I walked into the office with complete reassurance. As I placed my bag on my workstation, I came face to face with my colleague. With tear-filled eyes, she asked, “Can we pray?” In that moment, my joy returned. A few minutes later, her smile had returned. I was in awe of God. This was the same person who told me she only believed in karma. I had spent nine months planting seeds in the office, now God was watering those seeds. It was as if He was reminding me that it was not about me, but it was about Him fulfilling His purpose through me.

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10 NIV

No room for God

How did I allow worry to consume me for two nights? How did I forget my calling? My workplace was my frontline. The place where I am called to bring joy to those whom God have not yet called. How did I forget this?
During that busy week, I threw my work prayer routine out of the window. I was just too busy for God! I allowed my cases to consume my thoughts; I pushed Him to the back.

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16‭-‬18 NIV

Trials

As I reflected on my complex case load, I smile at God’s wisdom. God never said that I wouldn’t be tested. Jesus was continuously tested by the enemy! Tests are there, but so is God’s grace. Today, I am reminded that God’s unconditional love for me is enough, His grace is sufficient. It is through these tests, we see God’s power.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV

Every thing Happens For the Good

Today, I am more dependent on Jesus than when we first met. I realised how much I’ve missed Him; I have fallen in love all over again. I guess that little separation was needed, I took His love for granted. I became complacent. It’s reassuring to know that God wouldn’t hold this against me! He loves us so much. He always longs for us to come to Him.

“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5

God is ever so wise! If it wasn’t for these complex cases, I wouldn’t have grown in confidence and skills. More importantly, I am reminded that I am not perfect! So what if I don’t get it right? God knows the plans He has for me. God knows the plans He has for my career. I must be in the wilderness to grow! As I write to you, there is a huge smile on my face. I smile because my faith has grown and my peace has returned.

“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4: 7 NIV

I am also reminded of the importance of humility. I am growing in faith, but I should not be proud. I must never think that I can do it all on my own, because I cannot. I must never think that am more important than others, because Jesus has revealed himself to me. I am a nothing without God.

“Even though I have received such wonderful revelations from God. So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud.” 2 Corinthians 12: 7

We are the only Bible some unbelievers will ever read

My heart’s desire is to grow and be more like Jesus. I want to talk about God, but I want my actions to reflect this as well. Unbelievers may not read the Bible, but they will read me!
I thanked the Holy Spirit for working in me that morning. If it wasn’t for my invisible partner, I would not have walked into that ladies’ room. I would not have had the strength to pray for myself or others. I would not have made myself available, to be used by God.

I am thankful that God was and is working in me to bring good news to the spiritually poor. I ask that God continues to work in me, until Christ Jesus returns ( Philippians 1:6).

Today’s Prayer

I pray that God will use you to bring joy to others.
May God provide you with opportunities to grow your faith.
May you be blessed by God, so you can be a blessing onto others.
I end with this message from Mother Teresa. I love this quote, because it applies to Christians and those whom God have not yet called.
God Loves You,
Love,
Ann 🙂