The LORD gave us mind and conscience; we cannot hide from ourselves. Proverbs 20:27 GNB
Last year, was the year of my water baptism. To be baptised with water, was to signify purity or cleansing from sin and a complete devotion to God. I had made a covenant with God; I will be called his disciple.
“Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.” (Matthew 28:19, NIV)
On the day of my baptism, I was filled with new joy! As family and friends celebrated the joyous occasion with praise and worship, my heart smiled. As the weeks passed, I felt like I was a new person! I truly felt at peace. I continued to attend my regular church services and continued to read my Bible. As I grew closer to God, I became more aware of my thoughts and feelings. This was the power of the Holy Spirit! Feelings which were hidden were now being resurfaced. I couldn’t hide my thoughts anymore, believe it or not! I was now baptised, but I still did not know if I loved Jesus. I was grateful that I was rescued from a dark place, but could I really say that I loved him? Was it truly him who rescued me? Did I love Jesus enough to be made a disciple?
“Those who come to me cannot be my disciples unless they love me more than they love their father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, and themselves as well. Luke 14:26 GNB
No, I did not love Jesus more than I loved my husband. Jesus did not even make my top ten list!
My BC ( Before Christ) Life
In my BC days, I lied to God without even thinking about the consequences. I made promises and bold negotiations too. I’d be like, “Lord, if you do this, I promise I will never do this again.” As soon as he comes through for me, BAM, door closed! I will say a very quick “Thank You Lord!”, then back to my old ways. Can you relate? Don’t you lie, you know God can read your thoughts right? In my BC days, I was a top negotiator and a very creative liar!
I appreciated God’s kindness, but I never paid attention to the person behind the act. Here I was, caught in a similar dilemma. The only difference was, I knew I was never going to slam the door on him. I was leaving the door wide open! I was not going to stand at the door or wrestle with the doorknob, I was going in. I was going to walk to the end of that long hallway, until I met him face to face and I was not turning back. I was going to approach him with humility and truthfulness, because I had made a vow which I was not about to break. I was going to be made a disciple! I was going to love him more than I loved anyone else.
“‘Do not steal. “‘Do not lie. “‘Do not deceive one another. Leviticus 19:11
If it’s one scripture I knew as an unbeliever was the above scripture. As children, my sisters and I will say,” Thou shall not lie” in the hope that one of us will speak the truth. “It’s interesting, the scripture tells us not to lie, but this particular scripture does not say to whom. You see, we sometimes fail to pay attention to the lies we tell ourselves. We neglect the thoughts that God so wants us to pay attention to. However, there is good news! The moment you are in Christ Jesus, everything which is hidden will come to light. Yes, even those lies or thoughts you wish you can bury forever.
From darkness to light
“Whatever is hidden away will be brought out into the open, and whatever is covered up will be found and brought to light. Luke 8:17 GNB
Everything that becomes visible becomes light. The moment we shed light on our deepest thoughts, the enemy becomes scared. You are about to deal with a situation he thought you didn’t have the guts to face. He knows that anything brought into the light, will be dealt with by the power of God! This scares him! Remember that the devil was once an angel, he knows that God is forgiving and will always look after his children. He knows the power of God!
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (John 1:9 King James Version (KJV)
So I went to the best place, I went down on my knees and shared my thoughts with God. I openly admitted to God that I wanted to know Jesus, because he was not on the top of my list. I wanted to love this person who died for my sins and I wanted to minister to others about him. I was embarrassed at first, but I was not about to let my feelings get in the way. I trusted God completely and I was willing to learn.
“Ask, and you will receive; seek, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks will receive, and anyone who seeks will find, and the door will be opened to those who knock.
From natural to supernatural
Within the next few months, Jesus was going to reveal himself to me in ways only the spiritual person understood. Did I see this coming? No, I didn’t. I just trusted God! I dedicated my time to get to know God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Did you know that I did not know the difference between Jesus and the Holy Spirit? It was through my quiet time, I learnt the difference. This “quiet” time was just an hour or just forty five minuites, reading the Bible, meditating on scriptures and listening to what God wanted to teach me. When you can, dedicate some of your time to the books of John and Acts. If you’re a baby Christian like me, these books will help you to understand a bit more. Get yourself a NIV or Good News Bible and The King James Version Bible, it makes a good comparison. Anyways, as the months flew by, I saw my life changed from natural to supernatural. Jesus was going to do some wonderful things in my life, through the power of the Holy Spirit! Unimaginable and wonderful things 🙂
Whoever does not have the Spirit cannot receive the gifts that come from God’s Spirit. Such people really do not understand them; they are nonsense to them, because their value can be judged only on a spiritual basis. 1 Corinthians 2:14 GNB
We met most mornings at 3 am, No, He didn’t appear to me glowing like an angel. I am glad he didn’t, I might have jumped out of my skin! Yes, I would have; my faith game wasn’t that strong at that time! I’m sure he wouldn’t have wanted to scare me. I just felt his presence, like you would know when a friend is near. There were patterns which I grew to learn and feelings only I understood. It was the beginning of a relationship. Through the power of the Holy Spirit, I received spiritual gifts and was able to share these experiences with my family. They had no choice but to believe, for the dreams which I shared came to pass and the visions brought tears to their eyes. These experiences created a bond between my family ( Georgie and Shan included) and I. We had encountered something new and we were in awe of it. These experiences brought my family and I closer to God.
The list of spiritual gifts in 1 Corinthians 12:8-10 includes wisdom, knowledge, faith, healing, miracles, prophecy, discerning of spirits, speaking in tongues, and interpretation of tongues.
The following weeks, I felt like I was in a new relationship! I was never late for church and I never missed an opportunity to talk about Jesus. You remember how you felt when you were dating your spouse? You always wanted to see him, you were never late, you would be on the phone for hours, until he starts to appear in your dreams! That’s the feeling I got! As the weeks turned into months, I saw Jesus moved from the bottom of my list to the top of my list. Today, my soul continues to crave for him.
As the deer pants for water, so I long for you, O God. 2 I thirst for God, the living God. Where can I find him to come and stand before him? l craved for him! Psalm 42
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13 New International Version (NIV
God did not lie when he said that if you are truly willing to find him you will! I made up my mind to find him and I found him. I did this not only for myself, but I did this for my loved ones. I did this because I wanted to be his disciple. We are all accountable for how we use our time for God and we must use this time wisely. As disciples we are called to put HIM first! How could I minister to my husband about God, if I didn’t love Jesus or know him personally?
No one can hide from God. His eyes see everything we do. We must give an answer to God for what we have done. Hebrews 4:13-15 New Life Version (NLV)
Tonight, I pray that the Holy Spirit gives you the gift of boldness. I pray that you will find the strength to bring forth the lies, habits or thoughts which have kept you prisoner for so long.
As I reflect on my life, I think how different it could have been if I didn’t confess my true feelings about Jesus. I may not have been able to write this blog with such passion and commitment. My family may not have loved God the way they do now. I would have been a very quiet disciple and how would people know Jesus through my silence?
My friend, I do not know what lies you have been telling yourself, but pay attention to what God is revealing to you. God reveals the truth to us, so we can be set free. He doesn’t want us to be slaves to sin, but children of God.
While you’re reading this, the devil is shaking! He doesn’t want you to believe this message, because he wants your soul for himself. Get on your knees and show him that God is BOSS! Don’t be afraid, God will set you free and who God sets free, is truly free indeed.
Good night and God bless,