For our life is a matter of faith, not of sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7 GNB
Walking by Faith
A few weeks ago, my friend and I discussed the blog, through a regular phone call. Shan and I discussed the time it took to write, edit and publish a piece of writing. I’ll tell you this, whenever a blog post is published, I am never quite sure of what to write next. I don’t have a list of topics which I intend to write about, neither do I say, “I’ll write this today.” I must have a burning desire to share a message, then I must consult our Father. I’ll bring the message to His attention and ask that He confirms it, then I’ll patiently wait for a response.
“But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.” Romans 8: 25
The responses will come in different forms. In some instances, I will hear the word repeated through someone or I will see the message elsewhere. I love these confirmations! Then through the power of the Holy Spirit, I’ll write. It’s worth noting, in the beginning of my writing, this process did not take place. It’s quite different now. Tonight, I wanted to share with you how this came about. I felt compelled to share how walking by faith can change your life.
So then, as the body without the spirit is dead, so also faith without actions is dead. James 2:26 GNB
A few months ago, I made the decision to leave my place of worship. It was a difficult decision. This was the church of my baptism, the place where I had encountered Jesus for the first time, so it was quite painful. I am sure a number of you can relate to this. My heart was broken, however, I knew that it was the end of one journey and the beginning of a new one. At the time, I had no idea where I was going, but I knew one thing, I was not about to turn away from Jesus. I was not going to be the person I used to be.
We are not people who turn back and are lost. Instead, we have faith and are saved. Hebrews 10:39 GNB
Having felt a sense of security at my old place of worship, I was consumed with fear; fearful of the unknown! I was leaving my church family behind and was venturing off on my own. I knew that the decision to leave or to stay, had to be confirmed by God. Looking back, this was the beginning of me learning to trust God and waiting for His responses. Today, I use this process to write the blog.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1: 7 KJV
I’ll tell you a bit about fear and what it did to me. Fear was the cause of my anxiety and depression. I had allowed fear to consume my life to the point of being afraid of driving, leaving my home or just being on my own. The funny thing is, the devil had no idea that it was through fear I was going to find my peace!
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8: 28
Getting rid of the crutches
My friend Georgina called one day. “It’s probably time for you to get rid of the crutches, probably God wants to see how you’ll make it on your own”. Those were her words, but I believe that God was speaking through her. I had a dependency on those around me for many personal reasons. I felt that without their support, my depression would return. I worried that I would no longer be supported with writing the blog. I felt that I would no longer be inspired to write.
“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are things I will do; I will not forsake them” Isaiah 42: 16
How beautiful is this scripture 🙂
In the beginning of my writing journey, most of the messages were inspired by the Sunday sermons. The moment I decided to leave the church, the fear returned. This is what the enemy does! He shows you the worst possible outcome of any decision. He intends to steal your joy, through a swarm of lies. Instead of believing his lies, I turned to God for the truth. I took a day off work and fasted for the day, then I waited on God to reveal the truth to me.
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10: 10- 29 NIV
God Deserves the Praise
This situation has not only shown that I was extremely weak, but it showed that I didn’t believe that God had healed me from my depression. It showed that I had a greater belief in men, than in God. I had forgotten that it was through the power of the Holy Spirit that I was saved and it was through Him that I would be healed.
Lord, heal me and I will be completely well; rescue me and I will be perfectly safe. You are the one I praise! – Jeremiah 17:14 GNB
With this revelation, I was on a mission to find God in a personal way. I knew that in order for this to be accomplished, I must have complete reliance on him. This meant I had to get rid of the crutches. It’s interesting, this was not the reason for me initially wanting to leave, but it was now one of the most important reasons. I had to learn to trust and believe in God. I had to take a leap of faith in order to find myself. I was not going to let fear win anymore.
God is Everywhere
In early February, a priest decided to take a cruise on a Royal Caribbean Cruise line. Through God’s divine connection, he was going to send a message to me. Yes, a stranger was going to share his story with my mom. He had shared with her a mistake he had made in the beginning of his early ministry and how it led to physical suffering. He wanted to let me know that I had made a decision that was of God. Why was he so certain about this? Because I did not make the decision with two minds. I had asked God in faith and He had given me an answer. I am at peace because I trusted His response. He reminded me that God was everywhere and it was Him I must follow.
“But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double minded man, unstable in all his ways.” James 1: 6-8.
For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland. Isaiah 43: 19
The day that chapter of my journey ended, God began working on a new me. I am learning to trust God and I patiently wait on Him. I marvel at what God is doing through me and the life of those around me. Instead of waiting on the Sunday sermons to write, I am inspired by God to share His word.
Each day comes with its own worries, but I know that fear is no longer the boss of me. Like any relationship, I continue to ask God for spiritual stability. I am yet to find a home church. I wait on God to tell me to stay or to leave, who knows what our God is up to? You might see me rocking up to your church one day. I am so here for it! I go wherever the Holy Spirit leads me.
Tonight, I am not telling you to pack up your Bible and leave your church. I am telling you about the importance of trusting God and waiting on him to help you in difficult situations.
Probably you are in a difficult relationship, but through fear you’re finding it difficult to leave that place. Perhaps you desire for a new job or to start studying, you’re worried about how you will manage. Please know this; every situation demands a test of your faith. It is through your faith you will receive your reward.
I want you to know that your present situation is not your conclusion. To receive your conclusion, your faith must be put into action. It is through your faith you will be made well.
“And he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace. Your suffering is over.” Mark 5: 34
I pray that God gives you the strength to conquer your fears. I pray that you will call on Him in good and bad times. I pray that you will grow to trust and believe in Him today and always.