The past few weeks have been testing. The job of a social worker can be rewarding, but equally challenging. Where people’s lives are involved, there is always that question of, “What if I don’t get it right?” This was how my anxiety started, it was around this time last year the enemy found his way in. I felt his presence again, I had lost two nights of sleep.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34 NIV
Can we pray?
I drove into work with one belief, I believed in my heart that God will come through for me. I approached Him in the ladies’ room and as I shared my fears and worries with Him, I felt my heart becoming lighter. I asked for His leading, for His wisdom and guidance. I knew I needed Him more than ever.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
After our meeting, I walked into the office with complete reassurance. As I placed my bag on my workstation, I came face to face with my colleague. With tear-filled eyes, she asked, “Can we pray?” In that moment, my joy returned. A few minutes later, her smile had returned. I was in awe of God. This was the same person who told me she only believed in karma. I had spent nine months planting seeds in the office, now God was watering those seeds. It was as if He was reminding me that it was not about me, but it was about Him fulfilling His purpose through me.
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10 NIV
No room for God
How did I allow worry to consume me for two nights? How did I forget my calling? My workplace was my frontline. The place where I am called to bring joy to those whom God have not yet called. How did I forget this?
During that busy week, I threw my work prayer routine out of the window. I was just too busy for God! I allowed my cases to consume my thoughts; I pushed Him to the back.
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 NIV
As I reflected on my complex case load, I smile at God’s wisdom. God never said that I wouldn’t be tested. Jesus was continuously tested by the enemy! Tests are there, but so is God’s grace. Today, I am reminded that God’s unconditional love for me is enough, His grace is sufficient. It is through these tests, we see God’s power.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV
Every thing Happens For the Good
Today, I am more dependent on Jesus than when we first met. I realised how much I’ve missed Him; I have fallen in love all over again. I guess that little separation was needed, I took His love for granted. I became complacent. It’s reassuring to know that God wouldn’t hold this against me! He loves us so much. He always longs for us to come to Him.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5
God is ever so wise! If it wasn’t for these complex cases, I wouldn’t have grown in confidence and skills. More importantly, I am reminded that I am not perfect! So what if I don’t get it right? God knows the plans He has for me. God knows the plans He has for my career. I must be in the wilderness to grow! As I write to you, there is a huge smile on my face. I smile because my faith has grown and my peace has returned.
“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4: 7 NIV
I am also reminded of the importance of humility. I am growing in faith, but I should not be proud. I must never think that I can do it all on my own, because I cannot. I must never think that am more important than others, because Jesus has revealed himself to me. I am a nothing without God.
“Even though I have received such wonderful revelations from God. So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud.” 2 Corinthians 12: 7
We are the only Bible some unbelievers will ever read
My heart’s desire is to grow and be more like Jesus. I want to talk about God, but I want my actions to reflect this as well. Unbelievers may not read the Bible, but they will read me!
I thanked the Holy Spirit for working in me that morning. If it wasn’t for my invisible partner, I would not have walked into that ladies’ room. I would not have had the strength to pray for myself or others. I would not have made myself available, to be used by God.
I am thankful that God was and is working in me to bring good news to the spiritually poor. I ask that God continues to work in me, until Christ Jesus returns ( Philippians 1:6).
I pray that God will use you to bring joy to others.
May God provide you with opportunities to grow your faith.
May you be blessed by God, so you can be a blessing onto others.
I end with this message from Mother Teresa. I love this quote, because it applies to Christians and those whom God have not yet called.
God Loves You,